babies~

Alya sudah besar dan punya dedek baru,, gara-gara mamanya sibuk ngurusin si Rasyid dedek barunya, Alya dan Adli jadi sering pulang kampung ((I wish I was there everytime they're home!!!)). Mungkin Alya dan Rasyid masih belum begitu sadar dengan keberadaan kakaknya yang tak pulang-pulang ini, tapi kalau udah ketemu nantinya gue harus bisa membuat mereka mau main terus sama gue (!!!)
Sebelumnya aku udah upload foto Alya jaman babies~ now everyone you'll see my little baby has grown up pretttyly(?),,,

yes,, she grows up as a model 

Hello there what up, >,<

Nah~~ saatnya melihat baby yang saya juga belum pernah liat langsung. he's adorable tho.

The whole family members have those stary eyes

Yap segitu dulu, I am always happy to share my happiness~~

As Time Ticking, Many Things Changed.

this recent weeks feels so hectic. deadline bertumpuk di satu hari yang sama, dan masih berkelanjutan dengan deadline deadline lain. maklum selesai UTS harus memulai lagi kelas dengan dosen berbeda yang tiap dosennya ngasih tugas. untungnya sekarang sedikit demi sedikit udah dikerjain dan paling ga burdens on my shoulders jadi makin berkurang. Emang kalau udah kuliah gini apalagi kuliah pasca sarjana tugasnya berasa lebih berat dan memakan lebih banyak waktu.

tapi bukan itu masalah waktu yang mau dibahas sekarang ini. it's about how you're growing older and many things changed in your lifes and also your selves. betapa menakjubkan apa yang bisa diberikan waktu buat kita. waktu adalah space yang memberikan kita kesempatan untuk mengukir apa yang nantinya ingin kita lakukan, dan apa yang akan kita kenang nantinya. dengan adanya waktu, banyak hal bisa terjadi, banyak hal yang bisa dirasakan.

 

Dan sekarang, dengan 22 tahun waktu yang telah dihabiskan selama kehidupan ini, gue merasa gue sedang berada di sebuah titik tengah. titik tengah dimana gue melihat kebelakang mengenang apa yang terjadi pada gue selama 22 tahun itu dan bagaimana itu memiliki arti bagi gue sekarang. Dan sebagaimana waktu itu bergerak, gue menemukan bahwa siapa gue a decade ago much more different with siapa gue sekarang ini.

Hal simpel yang sempat bikin baper adalah bagaimana dulu gue mesti minta ijin pada orang tua untuk melakukan apapun, contoh simpelnya buat motong rambut. tapi sekarang orang tua sudah tidak lagi mempermasalahkan apapun yang gue lakukan terhadap rambut dan hanya memberikan komentar standar tanpa ada nasehat bawel. ini menunjukkan bahwa orang tua sudah meletakkan kepercayaan kepada gue dan itu juga artinya sudah memasuki saat untuk melakukan sendiri pengambilan keputusan, baik itu kecill ataupun besar untuk diri gue nantinya di masa depan.

*to be continued

Dreams.

So I want to share this weird things happened to me. It's about my night dreams. Recently I always have good dreams. And you know what? Those beautiful dreams of mines are just seems so real. And the pathetic thing is those dreams just will never really happen to me. It sucks. I wish my life is just as colorful as my dreams. 

E said he likes me. G sent me videos to comfort me. S became my closed friends... 

Those are so dreams.

[LIST] Makanan yang keliatannya enak tapi sebenernya ga gitu juga. -.- (Personal Opinion)

Hartika itu orangnya suka banget ngemil. Kadang kalau lagi ga ada kerjaan, hal pertama yang keluar di fikiran gue adalah "makanan". Gue sering banget mengalami yang namanya "ngidam". Hampir tiap hari. "Ngidam" ini muncul karena berbagai faktor. Bisa aja gara-gara gue ngeliat foto suatu makanan di internet, gue ngeliat someone makan, atau sesuatu yang dahulu kala pernah gue makan dan gue pengen coba lagi. Tapi, kadang, setelah gue memenuhi keinginan untuk makan makanan-makanan itu, ternyata makanan itu tuh ga seenak yang ada di fikiran gue. jadi sekarang gue bakal buat list makanan yang sering muncul di otak gue tapi sebenernya rasa nya ga gitu-gitu amat. biar nanti kalau gue pengen beli lagi, gue fikir-fikir dua kali dulu sebelum itu makanan bikin gue kecewa.

1. cake di *h* resto di FE itu sebenernya ga selembut dan semanis yang gue bayangkan.
2. pizza sebenernya enak... tapi enaknya kalau 2-3 slices doang. ga bakal lebih. karna itu bikin enek.
3. dorayaki di 2** bite ga bakal pernah ngalahin rasa kue pancong di gang gundar margonda.
4. ice cream M***** emang keliatannya enak banget kalo lo nontonin iklannya. atau liat kemasannya aja udah berasa kece. tapi kalau dimakan.......
5. ta*go coklat kalau gue makan sendiri seukuran sedeng itu bisa bikin kerongkongan kering. karena you know gue ga bisa ga ngehabisin semuanya dalam satu malam. yaeyalah bikin enek.
6. ta*go vanilla juga makanan favorit gue tapi kalau kebanyakan sumpah bikin mau mu**ah. soalnya ya gue makan semua dalam satu saat.muahaha
7. Kim yang diimpor sm perusahaan bumbu masak indonesia rasanya agak pahit dan yaaaaa gue ga bakal beli lagi kayanya meski gue suka banget Kim.
8. Makan buah tiap hari itu bikin sehat.. tp kalai buahnya nanas...gue ngerasa nanas bkin perut gue *unc*t
9. Gue suka banget roti... tapi roti isi krim itu bkin enek dan so greasy
10. Kata orang kopi bisa membantu buat orang-orang yang mau begadang biar tetep bisa melek. tapi kalau gue minum kopi malam-malam jadinya malah konsentrasi gue hilang, bawaannya cemas atau malah overly excited. Akirnya pas udah mau tidurnya bener-bener ga bisa tidur. Nah tapi.... biar efek kopinya sesuai dengan yang gue inginkan yaitu bisa ngerjain tugas sampai pagi gue minum kopinya dari siang atau sorean dikit. Jadi pas malam tetep melek tanpa ada efek samping yang tadi. :)

segitu dulu

I am Sorry, I Love You (2004)

So I've just finished watching this korean drama titled "I am sorry, I love you". This Drama aired in November 2004 starring Seo Ji Sub and Im Soojung. The drama is one of legendary drama in Korea just like Princess Hours or Full House.

Talking about the title "I am sorry, I love you", may be you will start to question "what's so wrong about loving someone?" " Why do you have to sorry while loving someone means you give your heart to him/her" It went to me too. I was questioning, "why? what happen? and how?" So I started watching the drama and that's when the dilemma in my heart begins. This drama is the first drama which turned my heart up and down, let me having hope and then made me shedding tears.

Now let's jump to the story. So there was this guy named Cha Moohyuk (27y.o) who lived in Australia. He was adopted from an orphanage in Korea by Australian when he was a baby but it didn't go well that his parents abandoned him when he was about 9 or 10. He lived on the street and faced wild life driving him became a gangster. He was not alone, he met a woman and they lived together as a marriage couple.

And then there was this girl, Eunchae who was a stylish/coordinator of her singer childhood friend, Choi Yoon. They were really closed to each other, grown up together and lived in the same neighborhood. Their families were really closed to each other and had good relationship. Since Eunchae was the girl who keep taking care of Yoon, she started liking him but never told him. Unfortunately, Yoon liked another girl who was a movie actress named Minjoo. Minjoo was also closed to Eunchae since Yoon and Minjoo often be in same events such as CF,etc.

The touching love story began when Minjoo and Yoon had a CF shooting in Australia. Yoon showing his affection towards Minjoo even though he knew Minjoo was a player. It made Eunchae annoyed so she told Minjoo about Yoon's sincere feeling but Minjoo replied saying that she thought that love was just a game for her. Eunchae became more sad about that and decided to leave the town earlier by herself. 

When she was waiting for a taxi to the airport, she was robbed with nothing left. Eunchae was pitying her self for what happened to her and wandered around the town. When she was tired, she decided to stop for a rest. That's when Moohyuk came to her trying to fool her. He asked where she was from and mentioning some countries with it's language but got no respond from Eunchae. Then when he asked if she was from Korea, Eunchae was really happy knowing that she met a person who was from same country as her and felt relieved. Moohyuk brought her to a pub and got her drunk. He then leaved her alone there and got money from it. Eunchae then be an auction in the pub but Moohyuk came back and run away saving Eunchae. They were saved but then Moohyuk leaved Eunchae again. Eunchae was still afraid so she followed him till nigh and found out that Moohyuk had no place and just slept on the street. Eunchae was disappointed then leaved Moohyuk but she was chased by other gangsters so she back to Moohyuk and slept on the street with him.

***

Moohyuk was going to buy a birthday gift for his wife but then found out that she was cheating and going to marry a rich man. Moohyuk was so sad and wanted to take his wife back from the wedding party but he was shot in the head there. He was survived with one bullet still remain in his head. The doctor said that he was going to die in short time so his wife sent him to Korea so that he could die in their own country.

In Korea, Moohyuk found out about the fact of his miserable life that he had a retarded twin sister and they were abandoned by their mother who was a movie star and lived happily with another son, Yoon. Moohyuk decided to take revenge to his mother and her son. He started by visiting their house; standing in front of the house, but whom he met was Eunchae. Eunchae thought that the guy was fallen for her and came all the way from Australia to met her. She kindly rejected the guy saying she already had a guy she loved. Moohyuk found it charming and then by the time he really falling in love with her.

***

G Dragon

Well, gue hanya pengen bilang kalau GD itu benar-benar menghipnotis omaigat all of the charisma and smiles and talents. I can't stop daydreaming about him ㅠㅠ

Okay. lately gue nonton Return of Superman only Haru part. and there Haru, this 5 y.o lil girl also fallin' for this incredible creature. Padahal dia udah sering ketemu bigbang, but GD, is the only special one. even when she went to bigbang's waiting room and met GD, she couldn't look at him cause of embarassment. you can think how big haru's affection to him. Dan gue, berfikir, bagaimana reaksi yang akan gue berikan ketika gue ketemu dengan makhluk keren minta ampun satu ini. O God let me meet him, even once. I'd be grateful  ㅠㅠ

Remember-DJ DOC

Ini lirik lagu sedih banget ㅠ.ㅠ

The way she looked with her eyes closed

I couldn’t take my eyes off her

She’d deeply exhale the smoke with her eyes half-closed, I couldn’t take my eyes off that

I want to keep singing so that I could keep watching her like that

I can’t even speak about my hopes and dream

the only thing I have is time with her

The more I fell in love, 

the more my pain grew, the army and a secure job

Asking you to wait indefinitely was tyranny in the name of love

If there’s a guy that could guarantee your happiness

If there’s a guy that could love you as much as I do

I told myself I needed to let you go

I thought that was my final act of love

You began to get weary and sick of me 

because I couldn’t make any promises

Were you crying then? as you left me

I couldn’t hold on to you then because I hated myself

I hated myself for being such a coward

Sometimes I get confused whenever I see girls with long lashes

But I was in love with the image of you that I’d see inside of them

Do you want me to forget you? If so, then I’m sorry

Because all the songs I sing are about you