I am Sorry, I Love You (2004)

So I've just finished watching this korean drama titled "I am sorry, I love you". This Drama aired in November 2004 starring Seo Ji Sub and Im Soojung. The drama is one of legendary drama in Korea just like Princess Hours or Full House.

Talking about the title "I am sorry, I love you", may be you will start to question "what's so wrong about loving someone?" " Why do you have to sorry while loving someone means you give your heart to him/her" It went to me too. I was questioning, "why? what happen? and how?" So I started watching the drama and that's when the dilemma in my heart begins. This drama is the first drama which turned my heart up and down, let me having hope and then made me shedding tears.

Now let's jump to the story. So there was this guy named Cha Moohyuk (27y.o) who lived in Australia. He was adopted from an orphanage in Korea by Australian when he was a baby but it didn't go well that his parents abandoned him when he was about 9 or 10. He lived on the street and faced wild life driving him became a gangster. He was not alone, he met a woman and they lived together as a marriage couple.

And then there was this girl, Eunchae who was a stylish/coordinator of her singer childhood friend, Choi Yoon. They were really closed to each other, grown up together and lived in the same neighborhood. Their families were really closed to each other and had good relationship. Since Eunchae was the girl who keep taking care of Yoon, she started liking him but never told him. Unfortunately, Yoon liked another girl who was a movie actress named Minjoo. Minjoo was also closed to Eunchae since Yoon and Minjoo often be in same events such as CF,etc.

The touching love story began when Minjoo and Yoon had a CF shooting in Australia. Yoon showing his affection towards Minjoo even though he knew Minjoo was a player. It made Eunchae annoyed so she told Minjoo about Yoon's sincere feeling but Minjoo replied saying that she thought that love was just a game for her. Eunchae became more sad about that and decided to leave the town earlier by herself. 

When she was waiting for a taxi to the airport, she was robbed with nothing left. Eunchae was pitying her self for what happened to her and wandered around the town. When she was tired, she decided to stop for a rest. That's when Moohyuk came to her trying to fool her. He asked where she was from and mentioning some countries with it's language but got no respond from Eunchae. Then when he asked if she was from Korea, Eunchae was really happy knowing that she met a person who was from same country as her and felt relieved. Moohyuk brought her to a pub and got her drunk. He then leaved her alone there and got money from it. Eunchae then be an auction in the pub but Moohyuk came back and run away saving Eunchae. They were saved but then Moohyuk leaved Eunchae again. Eunchae was still afraid so she followed him till nigh and found out that Moohyuk had no place and just slept on the street. Eunchae was disappointed then leaved Moohyuk but she was chased by other gangsters so she back to Moohyuk and slept on the street with him.

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Moohyuk was going to buy a birthday gift for his wife but then found out that she was cheating and going to marry a rich man. Moohyuk was so sad and wanted to take his wife back from the wedding party but he was shot in the head there. He was survived with one bullet still remain in his head. The doctor said that he was going to die in short time so his wife sent him to Korea so that he could die in their own country.

In Korea, Moohyuk found out about the fact of his miserable life that he had a retarded twin sister and they were abandoned by their mother who was a movie star and lived happily with another son, Yoon. Moohyuk decided to take revenge to his mother and her son. He started by visiting their house; standing in front of the house, but whom he met was Eunchae. Eunchae thought that the guy was fallen for her and came all the way from Australia to met her. She kindly rejected the guy saying she already had a guy she loved. Moohyuk found it charming and then by the time he really falling in love with her.

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G Dragon

Well, gue hanya pengen bilang kalau GD itu benar-benar menghipnotis omaigat all of the charisma and smiles and talents. I can't stop daydreaming about him ㅠㅠ

Okay. lately gue nonton Return of Superman only Haru part. and there Haru, this 5 y.o lil girl also fallin' for this incredible creature. Padahal dia udah sering ketemu bigbang, but GD, is the only special one. even when she went to bigbang's waiting room and met GD, she couldn't look at him cause of embarassment. you can think how big haru's affection to him. Dan gue, berfikir, bagaimana reaksi yang akan gue berikan ketika gue ketemu dengan makhluk keren minta ampun satu ini. O God let me meet him, even once. I'd be grateful  ㅠㅠ

Remember-DJ DOC

Ini lirik lagu sedih banget ㅠ.ㅠ

The way she looked with her eyes closed

I couldn’t take my eyes off her

She’d deeply exhale the smoke with her eyes half-closed, I couldn’t take my eyes off that

I want to keep singing so that I could keep watching her like that

I can’t even speak about my hopes and dream

the only thing I have is time with her

The more I fell in love, 

the more my pain grew, the army and a secure job

Asking you to wait indefinitely was tyranny in the name of love

If there’s a guy that could guarantee your happiness

If there’s a guy that could love you as much as I do

I told myself I needed to let you go

I thought that was my final act of love

You began to get weary and sick of me 

because I couldn’t make any promises

Were you crying then? as you left me

I couldn’t hold on to you then because I hated myself

I hated myself for being such a coward

Sometimes I get confused whenever I see girls with long lashes

But I was in love with the image of you that I’d see inside of them

Do you want me to forget you? If so, then I’m sorry

Because all the songs I sing are about you

Alya, this kid takes my attention!

She is my cousin who just born on Dec 2012.
I can't tell how adorable she is but yeah she got me!!!

how cute!! 3 bulan Alya

Lebaran day~~ She was so cheerful spreading happiness to whole family

Family member ngikutin alya yang teriak like : AAA~~ *bahasa dia saat ungkapin kalau dia lagi seneng*

This expression~~ like a mature

Here I am Alya Mukhbitha Guslin

OMG So sweet!!!!

berapa bulan,Bu?? :')

My Cutie Friends

30 Juli lalu adalah hari yang saya tunggu-tunggu, yaitu waktu untuk saya balik ke kampung halaman di perumnas pondok intan, Solok. Di lingkugan yang ramai ini, terutama di sekitar rumah saya, terdapat banya sekali anak kecil berumur 2-4 tahun. Baby imut!!! Sebenernya yang dr dulu sering saya ajakin main pas pulang cm si Rain, bocah lincah dan nyapnyap plus beo yang sering main ke rumah. itu karena di udah d admired sama seluruh anggota keluarga gara2 tingkahnya yang ngegemesin. Ini bocah ramah banget, tiap orang yang lewat di depannya selalu disapa, di kejar2 sampai bikin hampir semua orang disekitar rumah suka main sama dia. Keluarga saya ngasih dia julukan Candra a.k.a Candu Raun alias suka diajakin jalan. Diajakin dikit aja naik motor maupun mobil mau mau aja. bahkan dia udah pernah ke rumah nenek saya dan juga keluarga dr pihak ayah saya. Bagaimana dengan orang tuanya? orang tua Rain adalah pekerja kantoran yang sibuk kerja dr pagi sampai sore dan dalam waktu itu dia dijaga sama pengasuh. selama dia bersama pengasuh sebenarnya waktunya lebih banyak di habiskan di rumah saya bahkan dianggap seakan2 juga rumahnya.

Okay, balik ke cerita awal saya pulang ke rumah 30 Juli lalu, saat sampai di rumah, yang saya lihat adalah rumah saya sudah seperti tempat penitipan anak.. belasan anak-anak berkumpul di rumah saya, bersorak sorai, beraksi, makan, minum, berjoged (ada speaker yang hampir non stop d play d rumah, just wanna tell : lagunya kebanyakan lagu korea + western yang mereka sama sekali ga mengerti).. Nah diantara sekian banyak anak ini, yang menarik perhatian saya adalah sepasang beradik kakak, Afgan a.k.a Abang dan Lady, dan tentu juga Rain. Knp? Alasan simple, karena mereka membuat saya penasaran. Smester lalu waktu saya pulang, saya sudah melihat pasangan adik kakak ini, terlihat sangat akrab namun pendiam. Jadi saya mencoba mendekati mereka untuk menemukan sifat asli mereka. Dan tebak apa? saya berhasil membuat mereka mengingat nama saya dan sering mengajak saya bermain.. Well bagi saya ini adalah achievement. :')

Bagaimana caranya? Tidak sulit, hanya dengan menjai kepo mengikuti kemana mereka bergerak, ngajakin ngobrol, tanya ini itu, plus satu jurus ampuh untuk deketin semua anak kecil di sekitar rumah saya: ajakin main ke lantai atas. Ceritanya rumah saya bru direnov untuk dibuat tingkat duanya namun itupun hanya lantai kosong tanpa atap yang kalau dilihat2 masih lama akan di lanjutkan pengerjaannya. Dari sana anak2 itu bisa mengejek teman2 nya yang ada di bawah, berhayal untuk terbang, melihat pemandangan dan posisi rumah teman2nya dari atas. Dari sinilah awalnya saya dekat dengan Tuan Afgan alias abang ini. Saya dan adik saya Tesa mengajaknya main ke atas dan disana dia mulai bercerita tentang cita-cita nya untuk menjadi seorang pilot pesawat tempur yang akan di jatuhkan di laut lalu di selamatkan oleh pesawat luar angkasa dan akirnya di bawa ke bulan. Butuh waktu cukup lama untuk dia menceritakan detailnya, yang jelas setelah ini dia menjadi teman baik saya. Esok hari nya dia pamer dengan belalang yang baru saja di tangkap nya, keesokan nya dia ngajak nangkap ayam, dan esok nya lagi ngajak saya cari belalang ke sawah belakang rumah, bahkan pernah suatu hari saya berjanji bahwa esok sore akan mencari belalang, dan d esok harinya itu jam 2 siang dia sudah mandi, dandan rapi untuk pergi mencari belalang.

Well, cukup sampai disitu tentang si Abang Afgan, selanjutnya adiknya si Lady. Bocah satu ini sangat pemalu, susah di ajak ngomong apalagi sama orang2 yang di anggap nya stranger, namun ternyata dengan sedikit pendekatan melalui otak atik rambut nya, main salon2an, akirnya ini bocah mau main dengan saya. bahkan anggota keluarga saya yang lain masih susah untuk mengajak main, megang2/gendong si Lady ini. Setiap main ke rumah selalu mencari saya. yes, gue bangga dong, :3. Selain itu ini anak sangat suka makan, jajan, dan sejenis nya yang meerupakan kegiatan memasukkan sesuatu yang layak dimasukkan ke mulut.

Hmm,, Sebenarnya ada lagi Marvel dan Rafa yang juga anggota geng main saya selama di kampung, tp karena mereka lebih jarang kerumah di banding yang bertiga, jadinya tidak banyak cerita tentang mereka. :) But still, I was happy to know them all and played with them. Such a cutie human-beings with their acts, idea and expression. There are lots of memories. Now I am back to my busy activity in campus and I already miss them. Hope to see them soon. :))

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Just blame this pessimistic feeling.

I also hate this me.

Call You Mine

Let me explain, the vision in my brain
Close my lids and see you, then I get an eye strain
Then the migraine, as I enchain my melody
Me spend the week like my name is Jake Sully

I could be the kid and you can be karate
You could be my Angie and I could be your Brad Pitt
Fill me up like a cup poured in the coffee
I don’t really mind just know that you got me

then.....???